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Transformation Contest Entry!

Jul. 9th, 2009 | 04:51 pm
location: The Briar Patch (my house... :0)
mood: creative creative
music: Sufjan Stevens

So, Modcloth, welcome to my high school live journal.
I don't have a blog now, because I keep all my journaling on paper in pretty notebooks, but here's my entry to the transformation contest!

here goes...

Ladies and gentlemen, this is not a wig.
Nope. The crazy bright redness on the right was my hair for a little over a month.
This photo was taken of my college roommate and me as Janet Weiss and Columbia in our community's version of "The Rocky Horror Show: Live! Onstage!"
Obviously when auditions for this musical were happening I was more than excited. It was a chance to do the "Time Warp" again, and again, and again, and work with some actors outside of just our school, as well as to do this cult movie some fun and justice by singing and dancing and acting everything out ourselves without that big celluloid screen behind us to back us up. I know it's a weird movie, and it takes a weird theatre major to be interested in something like this, but it wasn't as much fun as I thought it would be as first. Apart from the fact that it takes an extremely coordinated individual to sing and dance in one's fancy undies onstage in front of many people each night of the week while the audience pelts you with toast, playing cards, toilet paper rolls, rice, and other silly props, this was the first time at the end of the night that I couldn't get OUT of character when each show was over.
I know I didn't have to keep it this bright for a long time, and most of my friends thought it even suited me well (or they were being really nice about it to my face...), but I was mortified walking down the streets of my tiny midwest college town weeks before halloween, greeted by stare after stare. I'm not a shy person, since I am a theatre major and loved being Columbia onstage, but I didn't know how to be her all the time! I wanted to go back to being myself! I was laughed at in a lot of my classes, children would point at me and whisper to their parents whenever I went somewhere off campus, and the elderly clearly aren't a fan of bright colors because one man at the bus stop even spit at me once! And you can't tell EVERYONE you meet that it's for a play. (Though I considered making a T-shirt that said that and never taking it off...). I even had to buy a wig to wear over it in order for our school's choir director to let me sing with them at the homecoming game--which is especially ridiculous since our school's color is RED. I would have been very much in spirit!
However, after a lot of the shock of feeling like a freak had sunken in, there started to be people who told me that the LIKED what I had done! They would tell me that they could never even consider it, but always wished they could. Telling them that I did it because I was in a play didn't shake their appreciation for my day-glow locks, either. They thought that doing something that ridiculous and drawing so much attention to myself for something that wasn't even my own choice, was an impressive and inspiring commitment to my passion of theatre!
The transformation wasn't just from Steph to Columbia, for from everyday to omg-fire-engine-red. I must have dyed my confidence as well, because after this show I realized that I am so glad I transformed for the theatre--and that I would do it again! Reinventing oneself is a GOOD idea, even if the idea doesn't always come from yourself to begin with...
I've been transformed to smile at how far I'm willing to go for the things that I love. This might only be the beginning. I hope I get to surprise myself again soon!

Thanks for reading, Modcloth! I hope all the other transformation blogs are just as colorful!! :-)
Love and Modhugs,

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Nov. 12th, 2006 | 09:34 am
location: the house
mood: fabutastic fabutastic
music: ozlo in the summertime

bIt's been a long time since I've written,  but
Wonderful things are afoot.
...except for the laramie project.

College and I have our first meeting on Wednesday. NYU, here I come! I'm going to sing for you and you will LIKE IT.

Rehearsal today is going to be unbearable, but come see the play which will be on thursday, friday and saturday. I'm a lesbian in a buisness suit. (for the third year).

Friends are mostly all good and publicly displaying affection in the art gallery...

Was stressed, but now I feel like I can get everything done. Sometimes you just need a weekend to tell you that everything is all good.


Jun. 17th, 2006 | 10:31 pm
location: mom's room
mood: awake awake
music: watching "The Wedding Singer" --it's actually not that bad

So I'm leaving on a cruise tomorrow. I'm excited... but it doesn't really feel to me like I'll be on a ship tomorrow yet. I guess it'll sink in once I force myself into a pair of shorts and drive to Miami with Michael. It's going to be fun, but weird because I'm going to be part of this huge family. His mom, dad, sister, her husband, her baby, his brother, his brother's girlfriend, his younger sister...etc. Usually it's just me and my mother so that's going to be pretty cool if not overwhelming. I won't have a cellphone on the cruise, and if I did it woudln't work in San Juan anyhow...so I'll have to wait and talk to everyone once I get back in a week. I hope everyone else is having an awesome summer. And I love everyone who was at the movies last night, and everyone who wasn't there, too.

so yeah.
goodbye for a week from me.

[hug, hug, kiss, kiss, hug, kiss, big hug, big kiss, big kiss, little hug, kiss, big hug, little kiss]

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Jun. 16th, 2006 | 02:09 pm
location: my room
mood: laughing histerically laughing histerically
music: MTV movie awards was on before

Samuel L. Jackson at the MTV 2006 Movie awards presenting the award for "Best Movie"

"I'm here tonight to present the award everyone's been waiting for: Best Movie. Now this award holds a special place in my heart because next year I'll be winning it for Snakes on a Plane. Now I know, I know that sounds cocky, but I don't give a damn. I am gauranteeing that Snakes on a Plane will win best movie next year. Does not matter what else is coming out. New James bond? There's no snakes in that! Oceans 13? Where my snakes at? Shrek the 3rd? Green. But not a snake. No movie shall triumph over Snakes on a Plane--unless I happen to feel like making a movie called more motherfucking snakes on more motherfucking planes."

and don't you forget it! motherfucker.

My Thoughts...but you can keep the penny.

Jun. 14th, 2006 | 09:55 pm
location: bedroom
mood: pensive pensive
music: "original of the species" by U2

So Megan told me to do this. And if Whitney's allowed to 11 then I can get away with 12 short ones, right?

List ten twelve! things you want to say to 10  twelve!people.
1. Don't say who the people are.
2. Feel free to comment, but I'm not confirming or answering anything here.
3. Tag 5 people to do the same

*Number 1-3 are not for people who read livejournal*

 1. Hearing your voice in my head helps me to sleep at night.
 2. I really don't want to get in a kayak with you next week.
 3. Did you ever determine the solubility of me in your life?
 4. Stop being somebody else. You were good enough for me.
 5. I hate how sometimes the new version is way better than the old one.
 6. I don't think you're crazy and depressed. Sometimes I feel like that too.
 7. Next year will be different without you. I wish you good luck, but I selfishly want to keep you here with me.
 8. I don't understand how you possibly have the saddest live journal entries ever, but are the happiest person to talk to.
 9. I wish I were more like you. [But then I laugh about it later to myself.]
10. You're too much like people from the past, but I love you anyway.
11. I wish we talked more--like last summer.
12. You don't fool me.

Determine what color you are to me...determine the sentiment...determine your own to say back.
And know that I love everyone I just reached out to with these words.

I now tag...

my luck

Jun. 4th, 2006 | 09:53 am
location: in the kitchen eating kiwi
mood: nervous nervous
music: my mother talking to the cat

Seibert's house beach party = awesome, but now I have spots. Worst sunburn ever.
GB's birthday = awesome, but now Michael is freaking out for no reason again.
Last party = tonight...and I'm not ready.

my luck = kinda retarded.

It took a lifespan with no cellmate

Jun. 2nd, 2006 | 10:49 am
location: in the study
mood: hopeful hopeful
music: "Evil" by Interpol

So junior year is over and this is my obligatory "yay" post that should show how much happiness I feel after getting through a musical, a forensics tournament, a relationship and a chemistry exam.  So it's over...
...Now what?

Immediate Plans for summer:

1. Today...find out if seibert and friends are actually going to the beach
2. Tomorrow...take the SAT again and go to dinner for Greg Brown's b-day
3. Sunday...fancy party in Weston oh emm eph gee

1. Cruise?! Con la familia de M.A. (that should be interesting...)
2. Forensics camp. (happy happy joy joy)
3. Edinburgh rehearsals. (going to PC over the summer-yuck, but yay for getting the part I wanted)

And finally

1. Actually going to Scottland to perform in Edinburg Fringe Festival (Europe, LOLs)

So summer is going to happen one way or another and then I'll be a senior. (Oh NOES!) I'm definitely excited for summer, but seniorhood is another story...
It's probably not good when you feel like you wish you could start over, but I agree with Alex when I say that I want more out of high school. I'm not though here yet. This last year is going to have to make up for everything I did...and didn't do...before.

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May. 18th, 2006 | 01:15 pm
location: living room
mood: sick sick
music: AFI

So Prom Happened.

Both U-school and Pine Crest proms were great.

But yesterday we had this ridiculous Senior Investiture thing. What other school has a ceremony for becoming a senior? I thought ending your senior year was the important part that required your grade to walk up onstage. There are a lot of people in my class that I've never heard of/seen before and a lot of awards that I didn't win.

Today I woke up and went to school for a little bit but decided to go home because I keep sneezing. I never get sick and I really don't know how to deal with it when I do. No one else seemed to notice that my voice sounded really nasally and awful, but I feel terrible. I really want to be better so I can go to the senior talent show tomorrow. Not to mention go to school and not sneeze every five minutes.

I hope everyone else is well and having fun.
And holy crap the year is almost over.

Michael just brought me soup in a cup. ^_^

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May. 9th, 2006 | 06:26 pm
location: library--two periods after it happened
mood: paranoid paranoid
music: library noise--so basically nothing

What do you do when you see someone staring at you from behind a bookshelf?
edit: "stare back" isn't really the best option.

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May. 7th, 2006 | 03:24 pm
location: In the study
mood: accomplished accomplished
music: "Crazy Love" by Paul Simon

Okay...time for eight random things about me lately...tagged by the amazingly hot Nia!

1. I am actually pretty excited for prom. our limo is going to be fun and I'm sooooo glad that michael and I don't have to go to two proms in one night anymore. I do have to go to two proms in a row, but that's so much better than having to split them up, and sooooo much less complicated.
2. I cut my hair short last week, and my friends like it even though I still need to get used to it. Today I dyed it dark, so now it's even more different. Everyone who hasn't seen me in a while would probably fall over or something. Don't know if I'm going to keep it this way, but it works for now.
3. I am really excited for forensics camp to start. I am going to miss so many people though.
4. I took the SAT yesterday and I feel okay about it, but man do I not want to do it again in June. IT TAKES FOREVER.
5. I am apparently going on a week-long cruise to the islands with M.A.'s family during the summer. Holy crap that's awesome. I've never been on a cruise before!
6. I am done with my APs and am going to be invested into seniorhood at a Pine Crest ceremony thing on Wednesday.
7. We're going to play a Clue game in English class tomorrow and I'm really excited.
8. I am going to try and have as much fun as possible during my last few weeks of school.

Alright! Now it's...
and Max's turn!